It stirs me at a very deep level to contemplate how, while I am far removed from the world into the way off dreams of night, the computer in my perfectly silent room is generating radio programs for listeners several states away fully occupied in lives of their own completely outside of my purview.
Why?
Huh??
Me too...huh?
Why is the computer doing this or how is it doing it?
Maybe It Will Come to You in an Aha! Moment
Let's see if someone comes along who has a way of explaining what I posted.
When I wrote it I wasn't trying to be hard to translate, I thought the situation would come across.
If, after several days, no one makes it clear, I personally will return with a full explanation because it's a life experience any part 15er might have.
I kind-of understand. I had a similar moment of reckoning at my first pro job years ago.
I stepped out the back door of my little townie AM station late at night to check the tower lights. When I looked up the towers, the realization that my voice was coming out of all that steel and into two states plus Canada was a very moving moment. I wasn't just a kid on the sidelines anymore - I was now all those radio guys I envied growing up.
That's What It Is
BillyBurg drives it home. That's the kind of experience I described in the opening post. It's called "lucid awareness", that is to say, a moment in which you see life in its entirety and your place in the universe. Kind of like DX reception in the head.